Saturday, 16 March 2013

The Cat in The Hat at Granville Island is worth seeing

When I market my psychic services on facebook, I only market to woman. Woman make up 95% of my clientele and I can't be bothered with the male sex unless it's for a bachelorette party. It's different if I'm working for a studio and men walk in but generally I'm weary (I misspelled weary and my guide told me, lol)  of putting myself in difficult situations.

My life through the eyes of my highschool friend flashed through my head last night. Bitterness about her. I was, and can be a self absorbed person . Understanding the difficulties that she presumably went through has been awakened in her head. My guides send me this information in order for me to accept and understand people. I understand that maybe she valued my friendship and wasn't intentionally trying to harm me as I presumed. Neither of our lives were easy. 
The discussion of my life spanned through my highschool friend to some of my teachers till it reached my first job. The manger described my first interview. I didn't even know it was an interview. My father just told me to go in and talk to the manger. I was embarrassed when he expected a resume and I was wearing a tanktop. 

My guides tell me to be a good mother. I try to be. My son can be difficult and acts up if we alter his routine at all. Granaville Island is putting on a play called, The Cat in the Hat. It was excellent and my son enjoyed it. Putting him in a different location away from home was distressing for him. He refused to get off the floor of the bus on the way home. I had to carry him half the way because he did the banana (limply refusing to proceed), he spat on my brother (I didn't know that he could spit), and wouldn't stop beating on on his sister and the kids in the park. It was a hard day on both of us. I know he had fun but at what cost?

On a side note. I'm in the process of obtain a Bio 12 text book so I can refresh my memory on basic human anatomy. It will only help me understand the functioning of the human body and how each neuron processes and how neurotransmitters affect behavior and into the brain. I love studying the brain and behavior. I wonder if psychics have a portion of their brain that is overly developed as a result of them trying to figure out what others are thinking. This question probably hasn't been address but maybe I can find similar results.

Anyways. Love to my children.

Friday, 8 March 2013

Religion and marriage.

Bear this in mind, I have two children with my boyfriend and we are not married. We own property together and are in a common law partnership.

Being socially responsible is to follow social patterns and rules. Society naturally objects to those who oppose it's social codes. Why do we get married? Without an in depth analysis of marriage at hand my speculations are thus. 
Religion dictates to us that it is morally right to be married to our spouse before we copulate with them.
Why? The paternity of children was hard to determine before the invent of marriage. Therefore woman controlled the lineage of their children when religion didn't control whom they slept with. Take a look at early biblical texts. In the bible, a woman would be stoned to death if raped. Why? Because the male lineage would be questioned. It's a basic way in which to control a civilization, lineage.

As more and more woman are becoming educated and engaging themselves within the workforce. They find less time in to find a suitable mate who wishes to have children within the time frame that permits them to do so. These men wish to be boys forever. Playing video games and staying up late. It's profitable from an economic basis, they spend more money on entertainment. These men are unsuitable as mates because they don't want to be parents. Too bad for the woman.

It doesn't have to be. Surround yourself with other woman who will help you raise your children. Friends, family and find a father (a male who has proven to be a decent father to his children) who will be a donor. Eliminate these men from the gene pool and you'll find that society will produce men that wish to father children. 

In short, don't be ashamed of your basic biological wants. The woman who will make it are made to adapt. 

Sooooo tired. Hope that was helpful. Power to you. 

Saturday, 2 March 2013

March 2, 2013

"Pleasure is the object, the duty, and the goal of all rational creatures." Voltaire

Voltaire's comment is valid but misleading. The pursuit of pleasure is an unconscious decision in most cases but we must first look at the topic of pleasure. Pleasure can mask our trauma which can lead to emotional unbalances such as not getting along with others. As I've mention in previous posts, our values are at the heart of our pleasure seeking. Are we trying to mask the pain we felt from our childhood? An amazing psychic I know named Cindy works with people's messages they received in the womb. Her theory is that as  a fetus we took on our mothers emotional pain and situational angst that we absorbed.

Often seeking to nurture oneself is the result of feeling disconnected from their parents. When we look back into our childhood do we see a pattern of longing for affection and love that wasn't necessarily there?  The Enneagramn talks about people who are Seven, they seek pleasure in their lives in order not to feel pain. Without pain there are no answers.

Assorted, my past is. I am not ashamed of it as society would like me to be. I know people with better positions in life (jobs, money etc..) who have used more drugs than I've ever thought about. The owner of a store I worked at, would snort coke at staff parties in the bathroom no one called him a drug addict because he owned the store and signed the cheques. I thought this to be such a double edge sword, drug use. Pleasure is acceptable in our society but just as long as we can function within it.

If you don't fit into society by buying the right clothing, talking to the right people and making enough money you could be outcast as being a drug addict or whatever society doesn't accept. The people with power and money are dangerous. We are taught to respect them because they can destroy lives and outcast people without a thought to their well being.  I do not use drugs, I can barley handle caffeine. Nor do I enjoy the company of people who are using because it messes with my spiritual vibes but I associate with such people on a daily basis because it's pleasurable and addictive to do so. I accept them in my life though as it is my goal in life to love unconditionally. When we are forced to associate with people who have obvious drug and alcohol problems we look past these social stigmas and accept them. Lets extend a little kindness to those with problems, this kindness could be the reason they were looking for to kick their habit.

The interesting thing about drugs and alcohol is that they are often used as a way to mask feelings. I have met many people who would and can be healers but they are so sensitive to the universe that they can't handle it. This sensitivity often leads to drug use. I could barely talk to people let alone leave the house without drinking at one point in my life. I felt uptight. I would agonize about going to parties in highschool and sometimes hang out a block away from them, thinking about going but being so shy and uptight about socialization that I couldn't face a group of people. When I started drinking, it was as if my burden was lifted and I could finally talk to people.

Pema Chodron's book, No Time To Loose has been a source of inspiration in my daily life. If I would have read her book when I was 10 years old I would have said to myself, AH HA this is what I believe. I have search many religions and sources of inspiration for answer in what I believe. She summed it up in the Way of the Bodhisattva. Maybe I should buy the book in order to give it to others.

Sin has been abandoned, thus there  is no pain.
Mind is skilled, and thus there is no sorrow.
For it is that mind and body both
Are injured by false views and sinfulness.

Thursday, 28 February 2013

Feb 28th, 2013 continued

Mars represents our anger and our drive in both astrology and palm reading. Anger again.

What makes me angry. I was thinking of my father. I find his view on the world limiting and have struggled to accept that I can't change him or anyone else. I created an imaginary conversation with him.
Dad: Why would I want to change myself (?) he asked me in relation to my former post about anger.
To this I replied, you wouldn't.

The major problem with self help is that in order to change into a happier successful, richer person you need to follow these steps and follow this mantra that maybe one other person around you believes in. If you are asking yourself how can I be more happy, rich, beautiful? then you'll never be these things.
You ask me: Why? 
I answer: Why does being rich, happy, beautiful matter to you?
That's what everyone wants/I was raised to believe this/my friends believe this/
Ha ha ha. You are bringing out my karma and I accept you. (this is my anger coming out because I must accept that the other person doesn't understand)
Fool, how can I get more rich, happy or beautiful?
Well if focus all your energy and every aspect of your life on it maybe you'll surround yourself with enough people who will tell you that you are rich and famous or happy or beautiful. Inwardly you will know you are not rich and famous etc.., you are struggling. This struggle is because of your values and contradictory forces in the way.
I'll bet the bottle collector outside your house thinks you are a fool for throwing away money and wasting your money on cars, clothing and shelter. I painted a woman's home in Whistler who collected bottles, she looked poor but this wasn't the only rental property she owned. These are different people who have something in common, they profit from what people consider garbage.

Life is a matter of perception and not everyone can get over their values and emotional hurdles in order to get what they want out of life. That is their struggle.

I believe in karma. Karma has a magical way of teaching us our life lessons through our struggles. When you take everyday as a lesson and stop struggling then you will truly succeed.

There are many reason's we choose to live our lives the way we do. Don't try to change other people's lives, if they aren't listening they don't care. Help people by understanding them and being kind to them.

Feb 28, 2013

I am certainly surprised that anyone has looked at my blog. Thank you for your interest.

According to whomever told me in my head, people who have the life lesson of the right hand Apollo finger whorl with mainly loops, are often very bitter people. These people find their lives are thrust into the spotlight and either hide from the spotlight or thrive within it. Understanding this spotlight is essential to their beings because without complete acceptance they'd never be able to perform. Possibly, always being under the spotlight equals accepting others unconditionally in order to perform? Unconditional love hmmmm

The ability to accept others unconditionally is synonymous with understanding others actions, thoughts and lives. This understanding must be quick and decisive as our emotions are. We can hate as easily as we love. Accepting our own emotions is the first step on the path of acceptance. You know the second.

One of the sutras I would repeat when I felt overwhelming anger towards my community or whomever was..
Those who harm me come against me,
Summoned by. my evil karma
But they will be the ones who go to hell (Samara, etc)
And so it is myself who bring their ruin.

I would feel angry when people would question my intelligence because I was taught to judge people based on intelligence early in life. This teaching lead me to surround myself with people who agreed with me and wouldn't question my intelligence. How limiting. I am not well educated, well spoken etc.. so was I to feel sorry for myself for the rest of my life? I didn't want to limit myself further by placing undue value on something else, why would I want to be angry.

Slowly my life has changed into one of ease and acceptance. I have problems with many people on a daily basis but I try not to react. Emotions are natural and should be felt and expressed but we shouldn't clench our heart chakras. This clenching will result in an emotional blowout that doesn't help us deal with our emotions effectively. By accepting others, my anger, my upbringing, my children I have effectively challenged myself to a duel. Shred the experience with the sword and the faster. I'll save another journey for today.

If you followed any of my post I would like you to do one thing today.....
 Ask yourself, Why Am I Angry?

Some of the most influential and amazing people I've met on my journey live in the Whistler area. Tonight I will light a candle in their honour because they mean the world to me, even if I have limited social skills outside of the psychic studio.

Peace to all.

Tuesday, 26 February 2013

Feb 26, 2013

The planets are causing havoc on the planet once again. As in 2011, I am feeling the pressure against me. This pressure gives me the opportunity to practice my skills of love and understanding.
I have an uncanny ability to bring out the worst in people. My Karmic debt helps others understand that their own anger and frustration is there to teach them a karmic lesson. My angels has taught me many lessons but have helped me more. I see every set back as an opportunity to learn to understand the universe.

Since I was a young girl, 5+, I had these values within me that no one else followed. I couldn't understand why people would hurt others, be consumed with materialism and want to pass their time being angry. When I was 11, I made a vow to experience all there was to be angry and hurt about. At the time I wanted to understand people's motives. I look back at this decision and am grateful for the experiences the universe has brought to me.

Past life. I remember a protest, fire and being hit in the back of the head and dying. The era seemed like the 60's but I'm not certain about this. Sometimes I wonder if this memory part of the reason that I feel as though I am meant to help people on a spiritual level.

I walked past someone in a suit outside of the community center yesterday and internally heard the conversation he was having on his cell phone. I will never reveal what I hear because it is none of my business. At time my schizophrenic abilities are disturbing. Unfortunately what I hear is the truth. When I tune in I can hear more than I care to. It's hard to live life with my gifts. To have other people's grandparents and love ones trying to communicate to me. I would choose not to hear his conversation on his cellphone because I have vowed not to talk about others thoughts and conversations. I do receive helpful information from people and my spirit guides.

Respect everyone. Treat rumors as a way to control your thoughts and diminish this respect. Why would someone spread them? Are they fearful of their own actions coming to light? When you disrespect the universe and the people within it the universe sends you the same energy. Accept and respect.

The thrill my daughter gets from dancing and singing bring me joy. Womanly cycles tire me and I am brought energy by watching my daughter dance.

Saturday, 9 February 2013

Feb 9, 2013

Contemplating exercise. My back is as stiff as my mind. Exercise expands my span of attention, :) I reach for new levels of happiness as my sweat drips down my back.
Without a doubt there is a direct link to psychical activity and happiness. This has been proven time and time again. Powerful breaths circle the circulatory system with every step. I feel alive and my mind is silent. Silence brings awareness. I am aware that it doesn't matter.
My son is biting me. I am aware that I need to get off the computer.