Thursday, 28 February 2013

Feb 28th, 2013 continued

Mars represents our anger and our drive in both astrology and palm reading. Anger again.

What makes me angry. I was thinking of my father. I find his view on the world limiting and have struggled to accept that I can't change him or anyone else. I created an imaginary conversation with him.
Dad: Why would I want to change myself (?) he asked me in relation to my former post about anger.
To this I replied, you wouldn't.

The major problem with self help is that in order to change into a happier successful, richer person you need to follow these steps and follow this mantra that maybe one other person around you believes in. If you are asking yourself how can I be more happy, rich, beautiful? then you'll never be these things.
You ask me: Why? 
I answer: Why does being rich, happy, beautiful matter to you?
That's what everyone wants/I was raised to believe this/my friends believe this/
Ha ha ha. You are bringing out my karma and I accept you. (this is my anger coming out because I must accept that the other person doesn't understand)
Fool, how can I get more rich, happy or beautiful?
Well if focus all your energy and every aspect of your life on it maybe you'll surround yourself with enough people who will tell you that you are rich and famous or happy or beautiful. Inwardly you will know you are not rich and famous etc.., you are struggling. This struggle is because of your values and contradictory forces in the way.
I'll bet the bottle collector outside your house thinks you are a fool for throwing away money and wasting your money on cars, clothing and shelter. I painted a woman's home in Whistler who collected bottles, she looked poor but this wasn't the only rental property she owned. These are different people who have something in common, they profit from what people consider garbage.

Life is a matter of perception and not everyone can get over their values and emotional hurdles in order to get what they want out of life. That is their struggle.

I believe in karma. Karma has a magical way of teaching us our life lessons through our struggles. When you take everyday as a lesson and stop struggling then you will truly succeed.

There are many reason's we choose to live our lives the way we do. Don't try to change other people's lives, if they aren't listening they don't care. Help people by understanding them and being kind to them.

Feb 28, 2013

I am certainly surprised that anyone has looked at my blog. Thank you for your interest.

According to whomever told me in my head, people who have the life lesson of the right hand Apollo finger whorl with mainly loops, are often very bitter people. These people find their lives are thrust into the spotlight and either hide from the spotlight or thrive within it. Understanding this spotlight is essential to their beings because without complete acceptance they'd never be able to perform. Possibly, always being under the spotlight equals accepting others unconditionally in order to perform? Unconditional love hmmmm

The ability to accept others unconditionally is synonymous with understanding others actions, thoughts and lives. This understanding must be quick and decisive as our emotions are. We can hate as easily as we love. Accepting our own emotions is the first step on the path of acceptance. You know the second.

One of the sutras I would repeat when I felt overwhelming anger towards my community or whomever was..
Those who harm me come against me,
Summoned by. my evil karma
But they will be the ones who go to hell (Samara, etc)
And so it is myself who bring their ruin.

I would feel angry when people would question my intelligence because I was taught to judge people based on intelligence early in life. This teaching lead me to surround myself with people who agreed with me and wouldn't question my intelligence. How limiting. I am not well educated, well spoken etc.. so was I to feel sorry for myself for the rest of my life? I didn't want to limit myself further by placing undue value on something else, why would I want to be angry.

Slowly my life has changed into one of ease and acceptance. I have problems with many people on a daily basis but I try not to react. Emotions are natural and should be felt and expressed but we shouldn't clench our heart chakras. This clenching will result in an emotional blowout that doesn't help us deal with our emotions effectively. By accepting others, my anger, my upbringing, my children I have effectively challenged myself to a duel. Shred the experience with the sword and the faster. I'll save another journey for today.

If you followed any of my post I would like you to do one thing today.....
 Ask yourself, Why Am I Angry?

Some of the most influential and amazing people I've met on my journey live in the Whistler area. Tonight I will light a candle in their honour because they mean the world to me, even if I have limited social skills outside of the psychic studio.

Peace to all.

Tuesday, 26 February 2013

Feb 26, 2013

The planets are causing havoc on the planet once again. As in 2011, I am feeling the pressure against me. This pressure gives me the opportunity to practice my skills of love and understanding.
I have an uncanny ability to bring out the worst in people. My Karmic debt helps others understand that their own anger and frustration is there to teach them a karmic lesson. My angels has taught me many lessons but have helped me more. I see every set back as an opportunity to learn to understand the universe.

Since I was a young girl, 5+, I had these values within me that no one else followed. I couldn't understand why people would hurt others, be consumed with materialism and want to pass their time being angry. When I was 11, I made a vow to experience all there was to be angry and hurt about. At the time I wanted to understand people's motives. I look back at this decision and am grateful for the experiences the universe has brought to me.

Past life. I remember a protest, fire and being hit in the back of the head and dying. The era seemed like the 60's but I'm not certain about this. Sometimes I wonder if this memory part of the reason that I feel as though I am meant to help people on a spiritual level.

I walked past someone in a suit outside of the community center yesterday and internally heard the conversation he was having on his cell phone. I will never reveal what I hear because it is none of my business. At time my schizophrenic abilities are disturbing. Unfortunately what I hear is the truth. When I tune in I can hear more than I care to. It's hard to live life with my gifts. To have other people's grandparents and love ones trying to communicate to me. I would choose not to hear his conversation on his cellphone because I have vowed not to talk about others thoughts and conversations. I do receive helpful information from people and my spirit guides.

Respect everyone. Treat rumors as a way to control your thoughts and diminish this respect. Why would someone spread them? Are they fearful of their own actions coming to light? When you disrespect the universe and the people within it the universe sends you the same energy. Accept and respect.

The thrill my daughter gets from dancing and singing bring me joy. Womanly cycles tire me and I am brought energy by watching my daughter dance.

Saturday, 9 February 2013

Feb 9, 2013

Contemplating exercise. My back is as stiff as my mind. Exercise expands my span of attention, :) I reach for new levels of happiness as my sweat drips down my back.
Without a doubt there is a direct link to psychical activity and happiness. This has been proven time and time again. Powerful breaths circle the circulatory system with every step. I feel alive and my mind is silent. Silence brings awareness. I am aware that it doesn't matter.
My son is biting me. I am aware that I need to get off the computer.

Friday, 8 February 2013

Feb 8, 2013

I experienced a complete opening of the heart last night.
My habits are centered around shutting off my emotions. Someone insults me and I close my heart off in order not to feel that emotion. Stunted emotionally, I rely on emotional extremes to release the pent up energy. 
It's good to cry. Accept emotions as they are felt.

What is going on in the universe. Mercury has moved into Pisces again, last time that happened was in 2011.